I am through half of my PhD life, and today I stopped and asked myself if I am able to perform to the extent that I dream to deliver. Frankly speaking, now my motivation for work is that I have to make my future secure. I need a few international journal publications so that I can get a good Post-doc position. Then I have to settle down with a good job.
The reasons stated above a indeed valid and I am working to push myself through all sorts of difficulties and failures. I am indeed arriving at new results, and doing some new work. But, I am not fully satisfied with the amount of work I am doing.
The codes that I write sometimes run slow, sometimes they diverge and gives so much of headache. In spite of all these I am pushing myself through to come up with some results. Again we have to explain these new features and the reasons might not be crystal clear to me. But I have to get through these and get my work recognized.
Hence I ask myself, if this is the way research is done. When we start out Phd life, we have a grand notion that we would do a grand research work. So when would I be able to do that truly fulfilling and
'Grand' work and arrive at the truly interesting and worthy 'Grand' result?
I thought over this issue for some time and I realized that what I am undergoing is indeed the way research should be done at least in my case. Why so?
Because I feel there is no 'Grand' Path to doing research. Every great actor, does not give a great performance in every film he/she does. Every actor like Sharukh Khan or Shabana Azmi for example, began by doing small roles whatever came on their way, and slowly they rose to stardom. It's very important to keep working, on whatever small open areas you get and keep on publishing and on the way, grand things will come. Not every paper an established researcher writes becomes a hit and earns lot of citations.
So, I feel I need to keep on pushing myself and even if I land up with some grand results and become famous, if I become complacent after that, I shall have a downfall.
So, in the end it goes quite well - 'Stay hungry, Stay foolish'.
The reasons stated above a indeed valid and I am working to push myself through all sorts of difficulties and failures. I am indeed arriving at new results, and doing some new work. But, I am not fully satisfied with the amount of work I am doing.
The codes that I write sometimes run slow, sometimes they diverge and gives so much of headache. In spite of all these I am pushing myself through to come up with some results. Again we have to explain these new features and the reasons might not be crystal clear to me. But I have to get through these and get my work recognized.
Hence I ask myself, if this is the way research is done. When we start out Phd life, we have a grand notion that we would do a grand research work. So when would I be able to do that truly fulfilling and
'Grand' work and arrive at the truly interesting and worthy 'Grand' result?
I thought over this issue for some time and I realized that what I am undergoing is indeed the way research should be done at least in my case. Why so?
Because I feel there is no 'Grand' Path to doing research. Every great actor, does not give a great performance in every film he/she does. Every actor like Sharukh Khan or Shabana Azmi for example, began by doing small roles whatever came on their way, and slowly they rose to stardom. It's very important to keep working, on whatever small open areas you get and keep on publishing and on the way, grand things will come. Not every paper an established researcher writes becomes a hit and earns lot of citations.
So, I feel I need to keep on pushing myself and even if I land up with some grand results and become famous, if I become complacent after that, I shall have a downfall.
So, in the end it goes quite well - 'Stay hungry, Stay foolish'.
